My Spiritual Awakening Journey
A spontaneous Kundalini awakening
On December 21, 2012, the announced day of the end of the world, as I was waiting for the trolley, I was suddenly overwhelmed by a powerful emotional shock. The next moment, I felt a violent inner explosion, like an electric shock that ran through me in a flash from head to toe, leaving me in a state of stupefaction, with the sensation of having been shattered into a thousand pieces.
A long healing process
Affected by a pervasive energetic hypersensitivity, and reclusive at my parents’ home for several months, I was trying to understand what had happened to me, so I started seeing therapists. One night, while taking part in a clairvoyance workshop, I had a very intense emotional dream in which a deep trauma from my early childhood came to the surface. I then began to remember all my dreams, waking up up to 6 times a night due to the energetic activity, which initiated a long process of subconscious healing.
First mystical experience
I began to study the Gospels, Christian mysticism and Advaita Vedanta, the non-dual philosophy of India, and I also turned to meditation with the practice of the Presence of God. Later, during an active heart meditation, I had an intense experience of oneness with all things, as if I were in a total loving fusion with all objects in the field of my consciousness, giving me, even if I didn’t know it then, a foretaste of God and encouraging me to keep striving in that direction.
Initiation and transmission
Once I reached a point where I was no longer progressing, I decided to seek guidance from masters. In 2019, I received various initiations during Shaktipat intensives with Jan Esmann, then continued for two years to receive regular transmissions from other masters, while also consulting numerous energy healers. This, combined with my own devotional practice, ultimately helped me stabilize my mental and emotional state and integrate ever-higher states of consciousness.
The direct experience of God
In January 2022, after waking up one morning and straightening up in bed, time suddenly froze, and the world, the body and the “pascal” person completely disappeared. Returning to this world, I realized that the totality of this human experience had never been anything other than “myself” experiencing “myself” in “myself”. After several years dedicated to consciously reintegrating this direct experience in order to stabilize myself in my true nature, my intention today is to help others in their own spiritual awakening. I wish to share the various meditation and devotional practices I have developed over the past ten years, hoping that they will be just as beneficial for you as they have been for me.